mutemind's Diaryland Diary

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my dentist looks like the grandfather version of the carson from queer eye

Won't face this day and I won't care now,
the sunrise promises nothing new

Everyday is the same
when looking straight ahead
Caught in the safety of routine
I lose myself again
And if only for a moment do I
truly feel this way,
then suddenly it all becomes
something of worth to me

Won't face this day and I won't care now,
the sunrise promises nothing new
And here I will stay with four walls round
my heart in a room that won't betray

Now that I've gone too far,
this escape has caught up with me
Everyone's gone
They all realized that I stopped caring
so long ago that today
was only taken for granted
And tomorrow's just one more
that I believe I deserve

Won't face this day and I won't care now,
the sunrise promises nothing new
And here I will stay with four walls round
my heart in a room that won't betray

Spent too many hours in this room,
leaving the world outside my door
In failed attempts to forget about,
being frustrated to myself

Won't face this day and I won't care now,
the sunrise promises nothing new

One last time
I will watch the sun
go down from this window
And I won't wait for a better day
to walk from
all it ever was that I
had given up on this road
One last step
and I will soon be gone

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also:

i'm getting my (3) cavities taken care of later today. this is a first for me. not really looking forward to it, truthfully.

had to go to the movies tonight with nana pat. she took pattie and caroline, too. (my aunt and her daughter who are visiting from california).

we went to see Lemony Snicketts. it was okay. i didn't have popcorn or anything, but i got a soda. i finished it 10 minutes into the movie. so i sat there for the remaining 2 hours or so with this emmense pressure. i thought my bladder was going to implode or something.

i felt so bad. after the movie was over, i made my way into the restrooms. i cut ahead of this little girl to make it into one of the stalls. you should've seen her face when i closed door.

but as my uncle always used to say:

"when ya gotta go, ya gotta go!"

amen, bro.

peace and love y'all. wish me luck later with this cavities thing.

12:14 a.m. - Tuesday, the 28th of December, 2004

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